Ever have a moment when watching something triggers an intense emotion that you didn't see coming?

I had it happen last night - not the first time and probably not the last.

Every once in a while I see a situation on t.v. that causes me to reflect on how close I came to losing my life 2 1/2 years ago.  At the time I wasn't aware of how serious the situation was, but after talking to the doctor and looking back at what was happening, I realize how lucky I am to still be here.  

The first time was only a couple of months after - I was watching ER and a husband and wife came into the emergency room, she was pregnant and was hemorrhaging - they couldn't control it and wheeled her into an emergency operation leaving the husband standing in the room with the evidence of her situation all over the floor.  I remember crying and calling David on the phone (he was at work) and trying to explain, through my tears, what I was watching and how it hit me so hard and how I realized how he must have felt when I was taken away for my surgery.  I couldn't believe how similar our situations were - she ended up dying and I was so grateful that my story had ended differently.

Last night on Grey's they were trying to save a man and his blood pressure was falling and they were panicking at 60/40 - how would they have reacted if he didn't have any at all?

How grateful I am for the doctors that saved me - for their experience and knowledge to know what do to.   For the divine intervention that kept me from being on the road, driving with my kids when the world started falling apart.  Every day is a gift I should appreciate more.  

And today - I really do.  

I love that I am still here to witness all the accomplishments, triumphs, heartaches, disappointments and everyday ups and downs of my family.  That I had the opportunity to bring one more precious life into our family.  That I can take the time to really reflect on the blessings I have received and have another day to start with a clean slate and do things right.  

And one more day to be grateful!

25 Things I'm Thankful For

1.  An amazing husband who works really hard to allow me to stay home with my kids

2.  My 5 wonderful kids

3.  Parents who raised me right - and gave me 7 siblings friends who keep me crazy sane!

4.  A roof over my head, with warmth and a cozy bed to sleep in

5.  School - and the bus to take them and deliver them home safely each day

6.  The Gospel

7.  A great ward family

8.  Good neighbors who treat my kids like their grandkids

9.  In-laws who treat me as one of their own

10. Easy babies - I would have never survived if they had been anything but

11. Diet Coke

12. Hot showers

13. A car - that lets me travel to see my family whenever I choose

14. Grandparents that I can call my friends

15. A country that allows me my everday freedoms

16. My kids first words - is it bad that "diet coke" is one of their firsts?

17. Hugs and kisses

18. Laughter and the humorous things my kids say

19.The holidays that give me time to reflect on my life and what is important to me

20. The quiet after bedtime

21. Good books that I stay up all night reading - and have to read again

22. The gift of music

23. My Savior

24. Good advice

25. A listening ear - for both the triumphs and complaints

Maddie's Baptism

We had Maddie's baptism last Tuesday - on her birthday.  We didn't wait for a stake baptism because it falls on the 4th of July weekend, and there were lots of family who wouldn't be able to make it.  We are so proud of her and the girl she is becoming.  She is very loving and wants to do things right.  We love her very much!!!

My mom made her dress - it is similar to my wedding dress and the accent color is from my prom dress - she loves it!

Even though it was just family, we had about 65 people there (thanks everyone for coming and supporting her!)  I spent the day, with the girls, making birthday cupcakes to share with everyone (only 105) - they turned out super cute!! (Thanks Gen for sharing the idea)