Ever have a moment when watching something triggers an intense emotion that you didn't see coming?
I had it happen last night - not the first time and probably not the last.
Every once in a while I see a situation on t.v. that causes me to reflect on how close I came to losing my life 2 1/2 years ago. At the time I wasn't aware of how serious the situation was, but after talking to the doctor and looking back at what was happening, I realize how lucky I am to still be here.
The first time was only a couple of months after - I was watching ER and a husband and wife came into the emergency room, she was pregnant and was hemorrhaging - they couldn't control it and wheeled her into an emergency operation leaving the husband standing in the room with the evidence of her situation all over the floor. I remember crying and calling David on the phone (he was at work) and trying to explain, through my tears, what I was watching and how it hit me so hard and how I realized how he must have felt when I was taken away for my surgery. I couldn't believe how similar our situations were - she ended up dying and I was so grateful that my story had ended differently.
Last night on Grey's they were trying to save a man and his blood pressure was falling and they were panicking at 60/40 - how would they have reacted if he didn't have any at all?
How grateful I am for the doctors that saved me - for their experience and knowledge to know what do to. For the divine intervention that kept me from being on the road, driving with my kids when the world started falling apart. Every day is a gift I should appreciate more.
And today - I really do.
I love that I am still here to witness all the accomplishments, triumphs, heartaches, disappointments and everyday ups and downs of my family. That I had the opportunity to bring one more precious life into our family. That I can take the time to really reflect on the blessings I have received and have another day to start with a clean slate and do things right.
And one more day to be grateful!
